American Honey: Change

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Change

I don't even know where to begin. I finally got the closure I needed. And now, it's my time. Where do I begin? I got so wrapped up and consumed with my 'situation' and being wronged that I haven't stopped to think about what I really need. So, if there is anyone out there that knows what I need. I am open to suggestions.
I have noticed that I have made this blog about what has happened to me. And that is not what my intent was. I wanted this to be a healing process. A place to vent my feelings. And so, from now on. This is about me and me alone. How I am healing and finding myself. I am no longer a victim of my circumstances.
P.S. How does one 'find themselves'? I know physically where I am, and mentally I have all my marbles. So, where am I finding myself at?

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MissJuly 9, 2011 at 8:27 PM
Well, I know it helps me when Im feeling disheartened, to read stories of people who have survived far worse than my current situation, but also thrived. I recommend Holocaust survivor stories like Night~Elia Weisel, or Man Search for Meaning~Viktor Frankel. When you listen to their narratives, it is hard to feel sorry for yourself and your situation. Good luck, you are searching for the same thing everyone is searching for. Think of it as a journey, an adventure, a saga. <3
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AnonymousJuly 9, 2011 at 9:18 PM
You look inside and see what you like and what makes you happy. You go to school to do what you love to do, you get a job that makes you happy to be there, you find friends that make you happy and smile, you find activities for your kids to do that you also have an interest in.... things will start to fall into place as you go along.... you do whatever it is that YOU like!!!
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AnonymousJuly 9, 2011 at 9:20 PM
the anonymous comment is from Donna Jordan.... :)
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The funny things my kids say on a daily basis that make me smile.

Tavin 08/05/2012
That's President Obama!

Tavin 10/18/2011
Laying on my bed, he was looking at my Victoria's Secret catalog. He turns the page, and points, that pitty gul, that pitty gul, that pitty gul. They start early! PS it was the winter clothing catalog, no bras and panties, the models were fully clothed.

Tavin 10/16/2011
"No, you crazy!"

Tavin 09/20/2011
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Kailey and Andre 07/25/2011
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Andrew 07/16/2011
The kids and I were looking at my baby book. Me, "My first word was drink." Kailey, "What was your second word?" Andrew, without missing a beat, "Oh crap." enough said.

Tavin 07/09/11
"My legs broken", he says falling to the floor not wanting to walk.

Andrew 07/05/11
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Kailey 06/12/2011
We went to have our nails painted and as we sat under the lights to let them dry, Kailey says "Mommy, I'm the cutest girl in here." Who can argue with that???

"Why?", "Why?", "Why"? "*SIGH*

Kailey 06/08/2001
"Mommy, how come there isn't summer break in Georgia?" "There is Kailey, what do you mean?" "Then how come Rain Rain and Pop Pop don't have summer break?"

Andrew 06/03/2011
"Mama, Kailey just said a bad word.", "What word was that?" "She called me a crazy head." "That's not a bad word, you are a crazy head!" followed by unstoppable giggles.

Kailey 05/28/2011
"Woooowwwww, Mommy, are we in Paris??", "No, Kailey, we are in Paducah, Kentucky."

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Change

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