Slow and Steady Wins the Race

So, although my life is speeding past me. I do feel like I am the tortoise from the tortoise and the hare. I may not be going anywhere fast, but boy when I get there it's gonna be a celebration! School is tedious. Reading every night bites. I miss being number one on my kids list. But I know my parents are doing a better job than I can right now. And that is exactly what my babies need. The best. They are happy, content and well, well cared for. More than I could ask for. My parents have truly shown me what unconditional love is. Something I thought I didn't know, or have. But mommy and daddy are always behind me!

Daddy and I went to a concert together this past week. It was so much fun spending time with the man that raised me into the woman I am today. We have so much more in common than I ever thought possible. He's a cool dude. At dinner I toasted him, "To the one man that has never disappointed me." And it is true, daddy has never let me down. Truly loves me, and I feel that I am loved. It's been a long time since I have been able to say that. I am one lucky little girl!

Even though I am the least patient person on earth. I do know that I have to do what I need to, to get my life where I want it to be. I have unbelievable opportunities in front of me that I cannot wait to venture out on. It is so very true that God puts people in your life for a reason. Even if you don't see it, or think that it is just a chance encounter. That Big Man Upstairs knows that he is doing!!

One of my goals of starting this new chapter in life is to try new things. Things that I would otherwise be scared, or make up and excuse not to do. So here I go. I am gonna get on it and live my life to it's fullest and enjoy every opportunity placed in front of me!!!

As for my friends, you amaze me every time I post on here. How can my life be any consequence to you, but yet you tell me how wonderful I am doing. It means more to me than you will ever know. I have EVERY response saved, and on days that I am down I read them. You all are amazing, I am so lucky to have you as friends. I thank God he placed you in my life.

How did I get so lucky?

Real Life Sucks!

So, I've been in school for three weeks now and boy does it blow! I really don't like homework. I really don't like being able to do everything for my kids. I don't like studying. GRRRRRRRR. But I have to pay my dues, right? Once I am done with school, all this will be worth it. Right?

When did life get so hard? When did the life I had always dreamed of become something I don't recognize? Life has dealt me a hand. And I am trying to figure out how to play it to my advantage. But right now, this very moment, I feel like I'm losing.

It's easy to get down because I did bad on a test. It's easy to get down because I don't have anyone to tell my day too. It's easy to get down, period! But I have to stay positive. And today is one of the days where I don't have the strength to be positive.

Where my life is going, I haven't a clue. But I know it's gotta be better than what I've been through. Because if not, then what the hell am I doing all this for?!

I followed a friends advice and made a list. A list of things I want in my mate. It's a tall order let me tell you. But if anyone can do it, God can. And so, I'm waiting for this person to just walk into my life.

Is that how it works? I wait? Or do I have to go searching for what I want? 10 years outta the loop, and I have no idea what I am doing!!

So, please dear friends, let me know I am doing a good job. Let me know that I am on the right path. Because I feel sooooooooo lost right now.